i should go

have you ever wanted to climb a tree

chain link fence

mountain

roof

and scream until your cheeks are flushed and your hair is a rats nest and your vocal chords feel like they're bleeding but you just keep  

s c r e a m i n g

because you think it is good

it will help

you want to hope with all your shriveled heart that the sound waves will sweep up upon the shore of your angry anxieties and wash it away into the changing tide

you scream because you want to see the bubbles blossoming from your mouth

like to imagine them popping when the reach surface

giving voice to the troubles that have nested within your head

have you ever wanted to run for the sake of  l e a v i n g

for abandoning poisonous people and their problems

for the feeling of burnt-asphalt-heels

for the hell of it

have you ever seen the sun beat down on your neck

and think "I could do so much"

have you ever realized

alone in a sunny town

that there is nothing stopping you

you could climb that fence

you could give that scream

you could run to the beach 

you could steal a car

you could drive and drive and drive

change your name

your face

your hair

could leave for anywhere

you could be different

there is nothing stopping you from turning off this computer

from leaving these screens

from taking $20 in one hand a roadmap in the other

and running not out of cruelty

but rather

for the hell of it