I, um.
Wow.
Tonight is unprecedented. Which I've said before but um,
Wow.
I have literally screamed "what" about 31 times over the course of the night, with varying levels of emphasis, length and volume. Why? Because two of my submissions to a local writing contest won Honorable Mentions.
And I read both of them aloud.
To a full room.
And people applauded.
Dear God, I think this is what drugs are like.
It was over 3 hours ago, but I'm still left reeling. People applauded, actually clapped, and later some strangers complimented me on my work and this is an incredibly heady and dizzying sensation that I desperately hope I get to feel again.
And I know it's silly and childish - it's not as if I won 1st place or anything - but out of over 100 entries, two of mine won honorable mentions. I was one of the few people who was actually able to read their work aloud- most of the other winners/honorable mentions didn't attend. And the title was called and I sort of giddily hopped and jumped over other the people sitting cross-legged to the side of the podium. And by the time I was through the opening paragraph, I realized that I could literally feel my heart in my chest, and I was shaking.
Again, cliched and over-dramatized, I know. And I'm sorry. But it was incredible and weird and terrifying and I giggled nervously a few times during pauses and such. And just, God, what I wouldn't give to be able to do this for a living. To maybe, one day, write books. And read aloud to rooms full of people who will actually listen. To get the shaky, nerve-wrecking adrenaline rush of my name being called and reading things that I've written.
It was just plain awesome, if you'll pardon my bluntness, and I am exhilarated and addicted and smiling and just
wow
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3 comments:
Sounds like you finally realize you have a rare and special gift. Your readers have known this for a couple of years now. A unique way with words and keen powers of observation. Congratulations! I look forward to reading your novels. Keep writing!
CONGRATULATIONS! I hope this is the start of many many readings.
SO proud of you! And I will never look at a plush Bald Eagle without thinking about Adam . . . I wonder if reading aloud helps with the process of writing??? You do both so well. Love you & Congrats!
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